Turns out, I'm not dead yet ! Hurray !
I hope you have all been doing well and that life is good.
I thought I'd share my current state and plans for the future with you.
As you may or may not know, I have studied tourism management for a semester and a half, which made me progressively more and more cynical and depressed. So I completely abandoned that. I didn't want to go to university anymore (regardless of the course - just NO university, that's it), yet I had no idea what to do instead. In the beginning of this year, I finally decided I might do an apprenticeship in France to become a pastry chef. I have now sent a few applications, still no reply except for a negative one. So I'm starting to feel slightly desperate and my mother is pressuring me to send applications in Germany as well, even though I. don't. want. to. (She has never been very supportive of my choices.)
Also, I have spent so much time asking myself what to do that I'm not sure of anything anymore. I HAVE to do SOMETHING and I know I need to get out of my comfort zone. Which I am impatient yet afraid to get out of.
Has anyone else experienced a phase like this in their lives ? Not knowing what to do after school, strolling through everything ? I'd like to know.
However, I am going to send an application for a calligraphy course in the UK. In case I don't get an apprenticeship, at least I'll have something. Something I actually want to study and will have fun with.
It's scary to think that within 4 months, my life might change completely again, depending on the outcome.
I'm hoping for the best !
Have a wonderful week ~